Tuesday, December 16, 2008

2008 Year in Review

I did this for a message board I'm on, and decided it would be nice to post in my blog.

2008 Year in Review
1. Technically in 2007, but basically got a 'new lease on life' (and my body).
2. Started the New Year with some friends in Raleigh.
3. Went to ATL with some awesome Phi Psi Brothers, met some more awesome Phi Psi Brothers from other chapters around the East Coast.
4. Got an awesome internship with a famous designer, then all of a sudden didn't have it.
5. Got a different, pretty awesome internship with a tiny company.
6. Went to NYC for the first time evar, for the summer.
7. Met a friend from online IRL, spent the summer with her (and we didn't kill each other).
8. Saw "Cry Baby", "The Marriage of Bette and Boo", "Gypsy", "August: Osage County", "Summer in the Park with George" and "Xanadu" on Broadway.
9. My mom, brother and aunt spent the weekend in NYC, brother seeing it for the first time. We got to see some amazing sights.
10. Ate some amazing food while there.
11. Came back to see all my wonderful Raleigh friends for the first time in at least 4-6+ months.
12. I've really really enjoyed and lived up my final semester.
13. Turned 24.
15. Doubt the job hunt will be complete by 12/31/2008, but I'm trying to stay positive.
16. Oh, and I'm down 100+ lbs.
17. And, music - saw Missy Higgins, and Janelle Monae (and a whole crew of other r&b/hip hop/jazz artists in Central Park) in NYC, N.E.R.D. and Common at NCSU. And comedian Eddie Izzard at Radio City Music Hall.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

It's just easier not caring...

---on another note---

I wouldn't normally say anything like this, but it's appropriate now. Lately, I've reallyhad the desire (or something?) to flirt/date/make out/something!

I'm not sure what all it is... well, I've tossed ideas around with Shira, but there's not exactly one thing. I'm just at that point of wanting some attention, ya know? And I know my time to date will come, but I'm tired of waiting. Then again, I don't really know how to do whatever it is I want to do... When I was heavier, I guess I just automatically let me weight not let me care about dating, attention, flirting, etc. And although I still feel pretty fat, I guess I sort of thought coming back to State, there'd be more...attention (from guys).

As the ever-intelligent Sara Yasin said to me one day, "I am invisible to boys too because I am too unfamiliar with the dance." So...anyone wanna teach me the steps?

One year Surgiversary!

Holy shit, it's been one year since I had my surgery. One insane year... and as of lately, I feel like I'm going downhill. My eating this path month has been...well BAD. I'm really trying to get back on track, but wow, struggling still a bit.

I mean, I will NEVER regret or not be grateful for having the surgery, but I wish changing the brain was easier! I also hate feeling this pressure to get to whatever success is. Not that my parents would actually verbalize any sort of pressure, but they paid for the damn thing; I think they're expecting a lot from me. So...wonderful...

Mixed emotions on a pretty major day for me.

Oh, and, as of my lowest weigh-in (which was NOT this week but on 11/5), I'm down 107lbs.